Vulnerability

So it has taken me a while to learn this but now that I do I think my life will change a whole lot more. You have seen my posts where I whine and whine about how life sucks, men suck, blah-dee-fracking-dah, but I think I found the source of all my problems. I feel that I have always been too vulnerable and let other people take advantage of me. When guys did something I didn't like I would let them do it anyways because I didn't have the strong enough voice to say something about it. I have always been scared about upsetting the other guy by not doing what they wanted. Now I realize that I don't want someone whom I have to do whatever they want to make them happy. I deserve to be happy too, do I not?

So now that I have realized this, I have been stronger in my voice to tell people to back off of me and make it clear to what I want. A great friend once told me that "when a guy calls you to hang out when its the middle of the night, what are they really calling for..," and after he said that I realized that I make myself too vulnerable. I have been stupid for too long and now thats going to change because I can speak for myself and I can't be happy without making my own decisions.

words to live by right now: SPEAK UP!