Today is the day where I feel that I give up and lost all hope on trying to find "the one." I have been searching and waiting for the right guy to come into my life and yet the guy has never come. The only guys I have found are the ones who want sex with me and no emotional attachment. Yes, I'm young and have so much time in my life to focus on who I will be with. I guess I just want someone to rely on and build a relationship with. I want someone to be there with in tough times and great times. Friends are great for those times but I'm sure its better when you have your significant other. But now I feel like I'm giving up on it all.
The word love is starting to sound fake to me. I think its time to give up on the searching and just live life as it is given to me. If I'm going to be the lonely old gay then let it be. I feel that it is very tough to find a gay man that sees a person more than just sex. There are some gays who like relationships but they seem to "fall in love" way too fast and there is no real meaning into the relationship at all. I've been told that someone loves me many times, but I never felt that it was the truth, especially seeing how my longest relationship has been four months. I never said the words "I love you" to another man and maybe I never will be in love. I suppose that I will just have to find better ways to be happy than relying on someone else to make me happy. Yes, this post is pathetic, but I give up.
Thank You to anyone who actually decided to take time out of there lives to read this silliness ha!
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