Homophobia.. Sounds Like a Disease, Doesn't It?

Homophobes are probably my second biggest fear, my first being death. Pretty sad huh? Why must people get so much enjoyment out of hurting others? I know I shouldn't worry about people saying stuff about me or making fun of the way that I am but its hard not to be liked for something that you can't change.

To be honest, when I used to be out in public I used to look around to see if people are saying crap about me or not. I've started to gain much more confidence than I used to about this and usually ignore what people say. But to those who are not there yet. I have been there most of my life. It is very hard and can get you very down but when you start accepting that you are who you are and if someone doesn't agree with it they have no impact on your life what so ever.

Anywho, my reason for writing about homophobia is because when I was at work last a woman with her teenaged child was laughing at me while I was cashing them out saying "He's so gay." This is where homophobia starts, at home. Monkey see, monkey do. Children who grow up with homophobic parents will most likely grow up to be homphobic.

Why are people homophobic? I think there are several reasons to this. One, they are scared of a different lifestyle that they weren't grown up with. Two, they are afraid of what other people will say if they don't say shit to homosexuals. Three, they are uneducated and they don't understand that its something that you don't choose.

When that woman said "He's sooo gay" to her daughter laughing and staring at me, it hit me like a bullet. This is deffinitely not the first time that this has happened at work. That is pretty sad that people can't be mature enough to not say anything or even wait till they are out of the room to say it. After she said that I went to the bathroom because it hit me so hard. Thank God that I have such a wonderful Manager that said to me "if anyone does that let me know because thats not right." I thank her so much just for saying that. It meant a lot.

I could go on forever about this subject so there may be other things on it in the future.