Twenty things I learned at Twenty years old

Today, November 5th 2012, is my 20th birthday.  I thought I would put a list together of 20 important things I have learned.

1. It gets better
2. Your life is what you make it
3. Everyone has their own story
4. One good friend is better than 20 shitty ones
5. Stand up for yourself
6. People like to talk about themselves
7. Labels don't describe individuals
8. Be humble
9. Be genuine
10. Don't blame others for your faults
11. Thank the ones who guide you
12. Listen
13. Meditation is a positive outlet
14. Believe in something
15. The past can hurt the present, then destroy the future
16. Hiding stuff from someone won't make anyone happy
17. Recognize when you're being selfish
18. You will feel differently in the morning
19. Worrying creates anxiety
20. Plans rarely go "as planned"

How it works

So a couple days ago my boyfriend's sister asks me a question.  This of which I didn't expect.  She asked if when gay people meet that if its just purely sexual.  I told her that its absolutely untrue.  Its like any other couple.  Some people meet on an absolute sexual basis and some meet in an emotional way.  The way she reacted seemed like she thought that was untrue.

I know that when I met my boyfriend that I connected to him very much so on an emotional basis than sexual.  Sexual came later, but I know for a fact that I love him on an emotional level.  I just love that.  He is so important to me emotionally.   We always just talked non-sexual to eachother, and just talking to him gave me the craziest butterflies.

What I can't make straight people realize is that its no different from a straight relationship.  I don't want my boyfriend for sex, I want him because he is the person that swept me off my feet.  The one who made my heart skip a beat, or made butterflies take control of my body.  I love the man I'm with and I am positive I will even after the day I die.  It isn't lust, its love.  I will never think differently.

That's my thoughts.

If its sexual, it won't last.  Love is eternal.

Stand Up

This is a shout out to my awesome parents.

Last week or so I woke up and asked my parents how church was. They told me that I wouldn't have wanted to be there and also told me that they walked out in the middle of church. Apparently the Priest was going off on the subject of gay marriage and how its wrong and suggesting that gays are sinners. So my parents took offense to it (AS THEY SHOULD!) and walked out of church!

Worlds best parents right there. Standing up for what they believe in! Love them!

Thanks Mom and Dad :)

Amish Life

So for the past week or so I have been living the life of a Amish person. Okay, not really, I just deleted my Facebook. So basically that makes me Amish to the world. For the first couple days it was difficult not to know everyone's business, for everybody not to be aware when I'm going to work, or know how sexy I think Ryan Gosling is. But for these couple weeks I have been doing good.

I felt a sense of freedom in a sense that people don't make judgements on me or think they know me because of what my Facebook page says. I would like people to befriend me by getting to know me in person. I'm not so antisocial where I need a Facebook to communicate and share my interests. Also, I can concentrate in class much much more.

Anyways, I just wanted to let the universe know that I have not vanished, I just deactivated Facebook. I don't plan on returning in the near future. I am happy with the better things in life.

Valentines Day

People either love this day, hate this day, or pay no attention to this day. Judging by the status' on my Facebook it would be hard to pay no attention to it. I find it odd that people will go through anything just to get a Valentine on Valentines Day. No one is going to judge you because your single on that day! Spend that day loving yourself (in a clean way). For the ones that had dates on Valentines day: You don't have to make sure the whole world knows you have a date!

Favorite Status' on Facebook for Valentines Day

"Happy Singles Awareness Day!!!"

"Watching teen mom on valentines day makes me appreciate being single"

"On this Valentines Day... Please don't make me choose between you and porn."

""you make me feel dead inside"... Happy Valentines Day"

"I am your mystery valentine,Your secret admirer.
I'm rich, good-looking, sexy,
And a compulsive liar."

Into my Life...

In the Past:

The first time I was asked to do something on Valentines I wasn't even interested in the guy, but I wanted a Valentine. Word of advice repeated; don't just go out on Valentines Day because your single. Well, I dress up all night and show up to his house, only to realize that this day would consist of being with a slob that I don't like, watching horrible movies WITH HIS MOTHER all night! I left early.

This Year:

So this year I had a guy ask me to be his Valentine! This was my first (actual) Valentines day with a guy and I couldn't ask for a better one. He took me out to an amazing dinner and we ended the night by drinking wine and watching a movie. I loved every minute we spent together and I couldn't get enough. Simply said, I am very happy :)

Leaving the Community

I always have been a strong advocate for gays standing up for the GLBT Community. I always thought that it was important to be a part of the gay scene and for everybody to stand up for each other. But, now I think differently.

It seems to me that every gay is just a duplicated copy of all the others. They have seriously become such a stereotype that they make gay jokes plausible. I say this for a few reasons because when I see gay guys in relationships I feel like most of them will cheat or they are the "home-wrecker", think that its okay to be a "Mean Girl", and they act like sluts. How can we stand up against this if during Pride we expose our body's in seductive ways. What message is that showing for the community?

The other reason I excuse myself from being a part of the community is because I don't need to be a part of it. I am my own person and just because I like guys it doesn't mean that I need to be defined based on that. I am not just gay, I'm a person seeking adventure and a happy life exploring the world. This doesn't mean that I won't stand up for my gay rights, but as far as I am concerned, the rights such as marriage should only be granted for those who will take it seriously.