Come to Africa with Me!

One thing that I want to do really bad is go to Africa to help people who don't have what I have. If I could I would want to go this upcoming Summer but I can't find anyone who is interested or willing to go with me. A lot of people are worried about loosing their Summer and having to work through it instead. But lets think here, how many great Summers have you had and how many has a child in Africa been able to enjoy? Probably not any for they don't really have a vacation from their daily lives.

I got the idea of this from my Aunt who went to help out in Africa. I have so much respect for her now after she has done that. Anyone who can give up their time for someone else is much respected in my book. But I think its time that I do something too.

Money is always the big issue on this especially if you're still in college like I am. But there are ways to go about this like fund raising and grants from the government who are willing to pay for you to help out other people.

If I could find anyone else to go with me then I would like to research abroad programs and hopefully hop on board with this within this or next year.

Taking it TOO SERIOUSLY!

Alright, it has come to my understanding lately through comments and messages that a lot of my readers are taking my blog posts way too seriously!! Yes these blogs are bias to my opinion but they are meant for a good read and a good discussion. They are often exaggerated for humor as well as rage. If you are taking my blog posts to heart then I advise you to not bother reading them.

Thanks to all my readers and keep reading! Just hit 1,000 views today!

AGE!

If there is one thing I can not stand its when people make comments based on my age. I know I'm young and I look like I'm twelve so you don't have to keep saying it to me. It really pisses me off because people will judge me thinking I am some stupid child because I am usually the younger one of the group. I don't mind being called "the gaybie" but when people treat me like a baby that's when I get pissed off. Don't make comments on when I drink and tell me about the no tolerance rule blah dah dah because I am well aware of it and I wouldn't drink and drive so shut up. And I am pretty sure that you were drinking when you were my age too so don't think your cool shit because your of drinking age and I'm not.

Its annoying that people will judge you based on your age. That's why most of the time I refuse to let people know how old I am so they don't treat me differently. I wanna be treated based on my personality. I act way more mature than most people my age. I know its important to stay in school so you don't need to tell me that. I am well aware that I wasn't even born yet when you listened to Pink Floyd or played old video games but that doesn't mean I haven't heard of it or don't like it.

Anyways, this is me venting because when I go out with my "friends," the topic of the night is always how I am the young one. It kinda gets annoying when its the topic of every party I go to. I would just like to have a normal conversation because I have a lot to say rather than how I was born when you were in high school.

Sorry to throw this one out to everyone lol. I needed to let that out. Oh and by the way.. Yes I can see R rated movies. -_-

Coming Out Story

So apparently, if I'm not mistaken (correct me if I'm wrong), BUT, October is national coming out month. So I thought it would only be appropriate for me to post about it, no? So, this is my coming out story.

Well, first my mother found out because when I was around 13 or 14 I was researching about gay adolescence on her computer and she saw it through the history. No, this was not porn! Anywho, the real story is with my brother and my father. It was around the end of 8th grade and for whatever reason I felt the need to tell them about how I am. At the time my mom kinda forgot about it and figured it was just a little phase that I was going through.

One night I wrote a lengthy note about how I am gay and how I don't give a shit what they think about it. I put the one note in my dad's car so when I left for school and he was going to work he would see it. As for my brother, I gave the note to a guidence counciler to call him down to the office and have him read it there. You know, to avoid confrontation.

So I am riding on the bus and my brother is in the back and im up at the front. Once we get off the bus I said "hey" to my brother. He just looked at me with his face all red and looked disgusted. When we got inside he went insane! He was screaming at me, chasing me, telling me I'm a faggot, etc. Well, before my father came home I "ran away" because I didn't want to deal with my family and I thought that was the thing I was suppose to do. My father called me on my phone and asked where I was and I realized that I am not gonna live in the middle of the street so I told him. He said he loved me anyways and that it didn't bother him. He actually also told me that while he was reading the note he thought it was my brother until he saw my name at the bottom of it and then he chuckled.

Now, years have passed that and it finally has started to grow on my family. Even though I can tell that they still can't understand it, I am thankful that I didn't get stuck in a worse situation where I was kicked out or anything else. If I didn't have my family to support me then I wouldn't have much at all.

The thing that bothers me the most is that even if your family supports you, it will still never make any sense to them why you are the way you are and most will always wish you went down the path that they had visioned. My one friend who is now much older had me over with his mom one time and his mom said something that even hurt me to hear. She said while showing me pictures of him as a teenager, "and this is the age he was when he broke my heart." Meaning that this was the age he was when he came out to her.

This post has gone long enough for me to write! Now its your turn. Everybody's coming out story is different, so, I would like you to share your coming out story in a comment below.

Peace!

When your crush is straight..

As I sit here in my college library, drinking my coffee, and thinking of topics to write, my crush passes by me. Oneeee problem... HE'S STRAIGHT! Like this is the first time.. Your crush being straight is one of the worst things a gay person can go through, or vise versa however. Why must this happen? Sometimes I wish that everyone in the world could be bi, then we can have somewhat of a chance with anyone. But sadly this isn't true, there is absolutely no chance when your crush doesn't like the gender that you are.

What can make this any worse? Oh wait... I know exactly how this can be worse. When your straight crush has a girlfriend! Watching them all over each other being all cute while you sit there looking, hating it. I've had many straight crushes, obviously because there are wayyyy more straight people than gay people. Plus, I have an attraction to masculine men, which is pretty much all straight guys.

So this is when I think, what can I do to resolve this issue? Well, I can either hold a knife to them, brainwash them, or the hardest of all three, forget about them. Yeah that's kinda sad that forgetting about them is harder than holding a knife to them or brainwashing them. Which, just to note, that I would never hold a knife up to anyone! But, I might try to brainwash you with my ideas about Carl Palidino.

So in conclusion of this whole MESS, we are limited in who we like and its another one of those little things that gays will suffer through. Oh, and just to make one thing clear, just because your a straight guy, doesn't mean that I'm attracted to you. Are you attracted to every woman you see? If you are, see the doctor, your a nymphomaniac.

Hell No to PaladiNO!

If you haven't seen this disgusting speech already, then you better watch it now.
Link here ----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKL9TRaePww

Okay, I am not much into politics but when I saw this I wanted to rip his head off! Who does he think he is? Like this is going to help his campaign at all.. He just cut out a whole group of voters. I can not stand ignorant people. Yeah because it was my choice to live this hard life style. You don't have to understand it, but don't hate it because of it.

Lets remember, gay pride parade is not the example we want to set for our children because its wrong to stand up for what you believe in and fight for equality. Oh and yes, to go on, I just lovvve how he says, "don't miss quote me as wanting to hurt homosexual people in anyway. That would be a dastardly lie. My approach is live and let live." Ha! Who are you kidding. One, you hurt every homosexual that I know. Almost all of them have posted this video on their status' with disgust. The only "dastardly lie" here is what you just said. Live and let live? no more like live and let suffer. Go ahead, put us through shit, don't let us have equal rights to get married and have a happy life.

I am so glad that he thinks that gay people brain wash people. No, your the brainwasher. If someone is gay, they are gay! What you are doing is brainwashing people to think that they are not gay and its just in their mind.

Well, he was smart enough to gain the jewish orthodox group and loose a whole population of gay people for good (more sarcasm). Im sure that in about 50 to 100 years kids will be learning about the rights gay people weren't given because they were who they were and they will wonder why anyone could be like that. Just like how we learned about women's sufferage.

If You Ain't Young Get The Fuck Out the Club!

So I totally took that line from the song Shots and reworded it beee teee doubbsss. But any who, what is with these old creep ass menn thinking they can go to a club and creep on young boys that could be their GRAND CHILDREN!!!

Welllll.. I went out Friday night with my girls out to a popular gay club down town. This Old Creeper that was probably around 55-60 years in age (older than my parents) was on the prowl that night I suppose. Anywho, he was standing in his ugly SWEATER watching me while I dance with my friends. So he comes up and stands literally 2 feet away from me and my friends dancing, so naturally we just move to a different spot. Well guess who comes following us standing 2 feet from us again?
Don't know? Here's a hint...
He's older than my parents, wears an ugly sweater, and creeps men a quarter of his age.
Yeah, that's right, me and my friends were so disgusted and I gave this old man a look that said "you better call AARP and hope that they cover 'my fist in your face' on your medicare plan."

After this, he got the message. So what does he do next? Well obviously he goes to another group of people my age and stalks them. Ugh, so gross. There is a time for clubs, and its not when your olddd.. I could understand if he went with friends and went to the bar, but when an old man is alone creeping on guys my age, then that's when shit hits the fannn.

GO HOME MR. RODGERS!

Gay Suicide

Alright, this is a subject that I have been avoiding because its such a sad thing to talk about. But, due to recent suicides regarding homosexuality that has hit the news within the last month, I thought that this would be the appropriate time to talk about it.

Being gay can be the toughest thing to go through. I can't count the number of times where I have felt like an outcast from everyone else. Like I didn't fit in with anyone else around me. Basically, people don't like people that are different than them because they don't understand the life style. There are usually people that hate you because your gay, like you because they want a gay friend, and the rare actual best friend. So obviously, this doesn't help any gay person feel like they deserve to live.

After a while this constant bullying and feeling like an outcast will build on a person where they feel that not living is better than going through the same shit everyday. This may sound very very cliché but, SUICIDE IS NEVER THE ANSWER!!

This is where the uplifting anti-suicide section comes in. Yes your going to go through shit, mainly throughout high school, but, you wont be in high school forever. You can do whatever you want. Be more active, go out and stand up for your rights and fight to end bullying. Everyone has a say and a chance to fight for what they believe in. You most likely wont reach out to millions of people but its still one thing to reach out to a few. Try to get people to understand that gay bullying is wrong and no one chooses their sexuality. Prove that gay people are strong and not week. Make a difference and be comfortable with who you are.

The Dating Game

So tonight I went on a pretty good date I must say. I think dating is such a funny thing only because its like a job interview. You are asked about your background history, what you are doing now, your interests, and your main goal is to weed out the bad and find the good. I find that some people use dating as a way to find out if somebody is cute and date them based on that and tell themselves that they will work on the social connection later. That's whats wrong with America, or society in that matter, when we want something (like a boyfriend/girlfriend) we want it now now now! Why do you think fast food places were made? So my point being here is that one should take the time to go on several dates with one person to see if they have the certain qualities that they look for, then decide if this is the person that they want to be with.

So back to this date, I was very pleased that he gave feedback on answers that were under his own opinion. Usually when I go on a date, my date agrees with everything I say because they think I will like someone who is on the same page as me. In actuality, I like a guy who has his own opinions and can speak passionately about his own beliefs. Another thing I liked was that he showed that he didn't want to be rude when something came up, for example, when his phone went off he knew it would be rude to be on it but he had to check it so he told me he was sorry for that. All good pluses in my book. However, there were some moments where I was turned off, but they were rare moments. Any who, that's expected by anyone.

So going further back to what I said in the beginning, dating is definitely like a job interview, on the contrary, you are both interviewing each other. So what I am saying is, be the interviewer, don't focus on what he or she thinks of you, focus on what you think of them. Be confident, and be yourself.