I run into this problem nearly every day. Not too sure if this is because I have an anxiety problem, bad ADD, or perhaps I just have that "squirrel in the middle of the road" mind set. I consider the fact that I let the little things bother me. I don't like drama, but I am often dramatic when it comes to certain things. I require too much attention. I expect way too much. I take notes on other people's happiness and form a jealousy upon it. What does it take to be okay with what we already have? Is it wrong that I expect more?
I consider myself a realist. I try to look at all directions of points of view and look at them as a whole. I answer my questions based on what is real. For example, I have a fight with my boyfriend. I look at my side (why I am mad at him), look on his side (why he doesn't agree with me), then I look at it in third person (what is the real conflict and how can it be resolved). Sometimes it is hard to understand the latter two. So then this is when I run into my issues. I can't stop thinking about what is going on and how its suppose to be resolved. This then increases my anxiety and I can't stay focused. I lose so much time and so much sleep trying to resolve problems that I can't figure out how to resolve, in the correct manner. Then my anxiety increases to a level where I can't make the correct responses to issues. I become over emotional and make things extreme.
So this is my analysis of myself. Looking at myself in a third person point of view. I realize my flaws and am trying to correct them in the right manner. I want the best out of life and I want to live it to its fullest, like everybody should. I have already made too many mistakes. Sure, I am young, I am suppose to make mistakes. My brain is still developing and I understand that I don't take things the right way. But, that with each mistake I make, I will learn something from it to make me a better and stronger person.
So I ask myself this question and try to make something out of it. What the hell is my problem?
