Living for the Future

It seems to me that people worry about the past way too much. What people have done wrong, the mistakes that they made, and the times they screwed up. Why do we care so much how somebody was in the past when we have a chance to learn about them in the future. People learn from their mistakes to make their future better. Some, however, do not and are made from what they are in the past when they have the opportunity to change.

I personally try to get to know someone by who they are now because you aren't what you were a couple years ago. If I constantly worry about how someone was in the past then I might be missing out on the great person they may have become. Most of the time I don't even want to know their past because it can ruin the future.

Learn from your mistakes and make for a better future.

Changing Majors

I am majoring in Architectural Technology right now and I do not like it one bit. I am not interested in how concrete is made from cement or how masonry makes up this learning establishment's walls. This is why Architecture IS NOT FOR ME! The only reason I went into it is because I liked to design houses on SIMS. Yeah, stupid reason, I know! Anyways its time to switch Majors this simester and its time to go to Plan B, Liberal Arts Biology and Sciences.

Right now I am going for Plan B to live the life long dream of becoming a Pharmacist. Study my ass off for 6 years and play around with drugs till I retire. The true American Dream. Oh, did I mention that pharmacists make lots of monnayyy! Thats not the only reason why I want to go into pharmacy, the other reason is that I have always been interested in chemistry and such so I think that will be incorperated a lot into it.

Anyways, some people, such as my uncle, are not too happy about the big major change! I recieved a letter from my uncle where he stated that I am making a mistake and Architecture is the only way to go for me to live a happy a secure life. You know, because I will be happy doing something that I am completely uninterested in doing. Oh well, thats my Dad's side of the family for you. I will do what I want and what I feel is right for my future, thannnk youuu!

Life is full of opportunities and they are yours to take.

BANKRUPT!

This week I am tottaly BANKRUPT!(not really) Thanks to my need to shop!!! I still havent hit $0 in my bank account or have hit the negatives but im $60 close to it! I never ever let myself get under $100 in my bank account but this week I did. The feeling of not having money is the worst feeling. Payday on Friday can not come soon enough!

So, what did I spend my money on. Well, I bought a new coat and 2 new shirts from Express. Yes my dear friends, that does add up to $200 when you choose the most expensive men shirts and coat at the store. Oh well, I like them a lot so I will just have to live with not being able to afford to eat this week.

Your probably saying, "well why don't you use the $60 you have for food this week?" Well to answer your question, I have no fricken idea why I don't, I just hate spending money unless I'm over my $100. Oh well, hopefuly I wont lose all my money again when I go shopping this week, then to the casino, then out with my friends. WISH ME LUCK!

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Anticipation!

Today is the day I have been waiting for over THREE YEARS! Yes, thats right ladies and gents and all of the inbetween! The braces are coming off! Years and years of the misery of brackets, wires, and rubber bands! I will be getting these babies off in exactly an hour from now as I am writing this post!

Things will be so different! I will finaly look better, be able to eat, and be an expert kisser! I can't wait to show off these pearly whites to the world. Now I will be able to smile in pictures without having my lips closed! OH THE JOY!

Blast from the past. Things that I remember about having braces.
-The times when my lips got stuck in my braces and I had to leave class so no one would see
-The time when I was putting my rubber bands in my mouth during class and one flung out and went into the teachers hair
-The time where I was taking my shirt off to go into the pool and my shirt got stuck in my braces and I needed scissors to get out of it

Yes, I have been through some great fun times with these things, but it is time to say goodbye!

Family

Something struck me while I was sitting at my family dinner for my mothers birthday. I looked around and saw everyone with their significant other, my mother and father and my two brothers with their girlfriend/wife. Then I thought to myself, what happens when I find the one I am happiest with, will it be okay to bring my boyfriend with me to dinner or will it be the most awkward thing ever.

Okay, so this isn't the first time ever that this has struck me. I mean, when I was at my cousins wedding last year I was wondering if my family would ever be accepting enough to be comfortable at my wedding some day marrying another man. Yes, maybe my mom's side of the family but I doubt my dad's would ever show up, or even want to associate with me again knowing that I would be living with another man. When I looked at my aunts crying at the wedding I realized that the probability that they would show emotion like that at my wedding is slim to none. Maybe I am analyzing this too much to the point where I am way wrong but I'd rather expect the least than the most.

Thought the picture from the show Modern Family came most appropriately for this blog post :)

Happy Birthday to ME!

"I'M 18 AND ILL DO WHAT I WANT!"(the song my mother sings to me when I wake up this morning) So yes, today is my birthday! Finally I am legit 18. Not much will change because I already drive after nine, go out to clubs, and go tanning. Oh well, guess its another year of being 18! Ha. So, tonight I'm not doing too much, just the family thing and hanging out with an old friend. Tomorrow my friends are taking me out for my birthday so I am quite excited for that! I can't believe it has to rain today. boo! Oh well!

So since its my birthday I am going to make a checklist of things I want to do before I turn 19. So here it is!

-Go to a casino
-Buy a lottery ticket
-Sign up for a credit card
-order something off an infomercial
-donate money to a cause
-get some sort of new piercing
-go on a trip with my friends out of state
-visit someone I haven't met in years
-help somebody who needs it
-work hard in school
-protest for a cause

Well thats my list for now, probably will add more later! Anyways, Happy Birthday too meee YAY! Peace out!

bellow are my birthday wishes, if you would like to fulfill them please contact me via e-mail..
-world peace
-infinite riches
-a Lamborghini
-a diamond watch
-a bottle of the purest vodka
-metallic gold jacket
-something Gucci or Prada
-A plane ticket to California (return flight not necessary)

Sorry.

I would like to write this in response to my "Age" post. I would like to say sorry to all my friends for stating that they see me nothing more of me than my age because that is very untrue. My anger towards the subject has caused me to call out on the wrong people. I should definitely be thankful for all that my friends do and respect that they see me more for who I am versus my age. I am sorry for throwing my anger out at you guys, I know that it was very wrong and immature of me to do. This goes against everything you guys have taught me. I appreciate the ones who have called me out on that and for the one who told me that I need to prove myself rather than whine about it.

Not that this is any excuse to get out of what I wrote, but just to clear where my anger was towards, the people who I get upset about who treat me based on my age, is the people that don't take the time to know me. The reason I wrote that post was from a person who doesn't know me that was at a former event where he kept making comments on how young I was and how I didn't understand anything that was going on. This happens a lot to me and I take it to heart, but now that I think about it, and what I have learned from the friends that I have, I shouldn't give a shit what other people say because they don't know me for the person that I am. Worded so, I should just ignore what they say about it and laugh it off. If I do get angry about it then I should prove that I am much more than the young person rather than whining about it like a child!

So, I would like to restate that I am very sorry to my friends that I have directed my anger to. It was undeserved and I hope you accept this apology.